As I sat and reflected on the past year, my mind kept focusing on the mistakes I made. Mistakes concerning friendships and relationships, which, frustratingly, I had made earlier and promised never to, again.
But I did.
I berated myself. I scolded myself. I hated myself.
Then I thought- you know what? I'm going to forgive myself. For being an idiot. For trusting the wrong people. For everything. Because I'm only human, and I'm figuring this out as I go along. So I sat down and made a list of ALL the things I want to forgive myself for. Maybe these resonate with you as well.
So forgive yourself:
- For making the wrong friends.
- For not doing the things that make you happy, sooner.
- For thinking money will get you lasting happiness.
- For thinking that external beauty has any relation to internal beauty.
- For not opening yourself up to love.
- For making life decisions based on the opinions of other people.
- For not being kind enough to yourself.
- For not realizing you're one heck of an amazing person.{If you still haven't realized this, I hope you do.}
- For ignoring your intuition.
- For feeling guilty for relaxing.
- For being emotionally manipulated without even realizing you were.
- For feeling as if you haven't done enough, or are not enough.
- For giving the best parts of yourself to people who never deserved it.
- For punishing yourself for what others did to you.
- For trying to live up to other people's standards.
- For not standing up for yourself enough.
- For making the same mistakes again and again.
- For trying to prove yourself to anyone but yourself.
- For loving those who hurt you and hurting those who love you.
- For putting people on a pedestal.
- For not taking control of your life sooner.
- For letting people take advantage of your kindness.
- And lastly, for not forgiving yourself sooner.
Is there anything you would add to this list?
xoxo
For letting people take me for granted.
ReplyDeleteThat really hurts, doesn't it? I hope you forgive yourself for it, Tanvi!
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